Every week, for the past 3 weeks, I’ve been telling myself that it’s time to start studying on Monday.
Get all the past weeks questions solved and understand what’s finally going on in lectures.
Sadly, every week, it fails and the responsibility is pushed onto the next week.
However, at the end of every week, new doubts appears and make my life harder.

I don’t want to promise myself anything,
But I’ll really try to spend much lesser time doing absolutely nothing,
and spend more time on my books!
Shall not doze off once I open my books!
Shall not use work as an excuse for not sufficient time to study!

All these shall start…
tomorrow…

Results

Got my results back.
Thought that Maths should have been better
Stats went beyond expectations since I know I screwed up big time
Econs was a disappointment. Yes, I know I screwed up and the paper was really tough, but somehow I just expected it to be better than prelims
IBM was quite a pleasant surprise but still, it wasn’t too good
Soci was probably somewhat within expectations even though it was the worst of the lot.

These gave me a 2nd upper and a 3rd class in terms of classification
Nothing to be sad about, nothing to cheer about as well

Time to work hard for year 2

Am going to choose my modules very wisely
Planning ahead is something I’m bad at, but i’ll work on it!
Had already figured my 8 units for year 2 and 3
Shall work hard on them!

Studies!

It’s sociology tomorrow!
My worst paper!
Followed by Stats! Maths and Econs! (My 3 relatively stronger papers!) Before the worrying restarts for IBM! (Another subject that killed me!)
I really liked the way my exams are scheduled!
It really doesn’t matter that I end 6 days later then a lot of other people!
Because if that’s not the case, I would be struggling with both soci and IBM for the past weeks and that will confirm + guarantee cause me to go crazy ar!
I do hope what I have done these past weeks are enough!
I don’t think I managed to find back my groove after prelims until probably yesterday?
I do hope it’s not too late.
I do hope that I can step out of the exam hall tomorrow with a smile! And when the time comes to check the results, I do hope that my smile stays there!

After exams should be fun!
Swine flu please go away!
I NEED my HK getaway with some amazing people!

I NEED some time off for myself but I don’t think I’m getting it.
In order to allow my parents to go overseas together, I might go work on 22nd May. Note: I end exams on the 21st May. Argh! I think I’m too soft hearted! I still remembered that I ORD on 19th Jan and I started working on 22nd Jan cause 20th and 21st are the weekends! But nevermind! I think I WILL love my job and it’s probably the most FLEXIBLE job ever! HAHAHAHA!
I’m going to shift house again! Busy busy! I wanna watch wolverine! I wanna watch angel and demon! I wanna play party and everything!
I wanna go out and just have some fun!
Argh! Neverrmind that. Those are worries AFTER EXAMS!!!

Stress!!
21st May and all those 9am to 7pm days in school shall discontinue!
Been mugging religiously for the past few months already.
Everything will be determined these 15 days!
Such an incoherent entry. Because my mind is full of sociology stuff that were memorised.
Damn scary! I can’t seem to remember things in depth!
Still got 2 more chapters to recap before I don’t know what!

You know, due to the exams, I bought Brands essence of chicken and cause of the flu thingy I bought vitamin C! I’m eating as healthy as I could control. So proud of myself! However, due to lack of exercise, I think I’m damn fat!
After exams I shall go running with some fabulous people in East Coast Park! I can’t wait!

Actually I enjoy study sessions in school cause the people are always so fantastic! Studying together with others are in itself a huge motivation! And when you have questions you can ask! And if others have questions, you can try to answer! And while you’re answering questions, you actually learn more! Which is great! Yay! And everyone is so helpful and so willing to share! Argh! The people I know are a real gift in my life! Appreciate you guys lots lots!

Let’s all score AAAAAs!!!!!!

Jia you!!

So frustrating!
After spraying the whole house with insecticide and very pleased with the “no mosquito” result, they came back!
I thoroughly checked through my house and there are no places that could have stale water for mosquito to breed!
So according to my maid, those pest came from the construction sites.
Wonderful! Firstly, they made lots of noise starting at 7am in the freaking morning all the way till 10pm at night. Their idiotic crane don’t off their light and it doesn’t help that the light shine through my window and my curtain is those that allows light to pass through.
And now, they are supplying endless amount of mosquitoes to suck my blood!
I might be wrong about them breeding mosquitoes la, but I can’t help to vent my frustrations here.
Hadn’t been ab’e to follow my designated time for studying recently mainly cause I’m too tired from the lectures that I’m having.
But I’m proud to exclaim that I sense a sign! The sign that i can ACE my Sociology!

Yesterday, as I’m so tired after watching the Man Utd’s match, I went home at around 2pm to sleep! I slept on the bus and slept at home! The initial plan was to sleep till 5pm. But you know, plans like this are often overshadowed by the state of mind when the alarm ring. So in the end, I slept till 7pm! Wonderful! But the thing is, I woke up feeling completely confident for Sociology! It’s like a light bulb lighted inside of me! And when I went over to student portal, my sociology teacher actually uploaded suggested answers for past test papers! Damn happy! Signs signs signs!

I really believe that this exams, it’s up to me to make or break it. I still believe that luck plays an important part in an examination, but this time round, my time management means a lot.I hope not to disappoint myself! =)

I’m starting to get back to all my bad habits again such as switching on my computer when I got home, logging into facebook to comment about my friend’s birthday party, etc. But oh well, I just need to study real hard when I’m studying! Constantly motivating myself and inspiring myself is important too!

Of course it helps that I have great friends studying with me and constantly motivating ourselves to press on, study harder, timme is running out and so on and so forth! I better start bathing now otherwise I’m going to be late for lecture!

Love all my DEAR friends! =)

Argh! I can’t believe myself!

There’s only 26 days to prelims and I just slacked the whole of today away again!

“There is only this much you could do if your heart is not into it”

I have tried my best to abstain from my computer distractions which are primarily caused by Facebook and Msn. I’m now on a Hiatus on Blogging, Facebook, and pretty soon, Msn. I have to admit that the cold turkey period for quitting Facebook doesn’t seem to be that bad. However, it doesn’t help that after getting rid of one distraction, another comes along the way.

I know what I’m weak in and I already made plans on how to study for them in the way that I feel will push up the marks. However, I could not commit myself to start studying profusely. I hope to obtain A A A B D for the finals [I got A A C F F (Probably) for Prelims]. I know that it is possible if I could just put more heart and soul  into studies and stop procrastinating.

Technically, there’s only 6 days per unit (considering 4 units since maths and stats are combined into 1 unit) remaining before the first paper. Time is seriously not in my favour.

I have since abolished the gym sessions and shall head off to school 1 hour earlier and leave school 1 hour later. Hopefully this 2 additional hours a day helps me achieve my target. This is the first time I worked this hard for an examination. I really hope that I could get the result I want so badly!

And fellow friends taking the examinations, do work hard and let’s all cheer together when we get back the results! (=

26 days to go..

Pimples!
Mosquito bite scars!
Ulcer!
FATS!

Argh! Not going to care about anything le.
Approximately 30 days to exams.
Definitely need to work harder
I NEED to get all my concepts right!
Lots of points to memorise!

Got a slight motivation after looking at some of my friend’s scripts.
加油吧！

PSLE Maths Paper

PSLE Mathematics seemed to be much harder as the years go by. There weren’t any calls by parents screaming that the papers were too hard during 1999. For all I remembered, the highest aggregate score that year was only 285 as compared to the usual 288. So the paper could arguably be harder that year? Perhaps it is because parents are getting more protective over their child and when they see their child so distraught over the papers, they call up the MOE board.

In all papers, there will be more tricky questions hidden inside the papers to differentiate pupils who score A and pupils who score A*. If not, Mark moderators will have a hard job to do and 1 point difference may mean thousands of pupils missing out on the A* grade. I admit that for 3 out of the 4 papers I sat for in PSLE, I probably didn’t do well in those tricky questions and ended up not scoring the distinctions.

With that being said, Straits Times today printed out 3 PSLE Maths questions.

Please do go and buy a copy of the STRAITS Times as I find it a hassle to take a photo, resize and put them up on the blog.

Question 1 consist of 3 marks. As I’m pretty rusty with my Maths, I took 6 minutes before I managed to solve it using Simultaneous Equations and solving it with Algebra.

Question 2, I do not know if I’m right or wrong. I took more than 5 minutes thinking through the phrasing of the question. I personally find that for a Maths question, it is important that tricky questions are tricky in the way solutions work out instead of tricky in a way that the question is being phrased. If I was doing this question in an examination condition, I would probably skip it and go back to it at the end of the paper. If the solution is a one step answer, it would mean I’ve understood it correctly eventually. If it isn’t, I wouldn’t fault any kids who failed to solve that question.

Question 3. I personally could only solve it after using guess and check method. Since we know that the water needed to be transfered whould be more than half of what it is carrying, it would not be too tedious. For this question, For 4 marks, it probably is worth it. (My bother managed to come up with a more logical answer though) However, under examination condition, I would probably be too stressed to try the guess and check method and use it only as a last resort.

Thank goodness I took my PSLE in 1999. If I were to take it this year, I might have gotten a B instead!

University admission

If everybody were to score so well for the A levels, how to get a place in university!?

Haha, I’m kidding. But looking through the papers today, it’s really quite remarkable la. Every school is producing their best-est results of the decade and stuff like that. But then, it’s normal la, because the batch who took the examinations are the legendary Dragon-year batch! Famous for the good O levels results and their high level of competitiveness.

And even more fortunate for me is that, I’ll not be vying a place with them but instead, I’ll be vying a place with the girls who are gonna take their A levels this year!

And with my analysis, since the people who’s gonna take A levels this year are categorised in the H?H? category whereby they have to take up both Maths and Science courses, people will have the flexibility to choose between Arts and Science when they enrol into Universities next year. This may proved too much of a concern for me as the number of Science students who wish to take up humanities might surge, causing a huge reduction of places in FASS!

However, since this year’s intake is likely to increase due to too many people who could qualify for University, perhaps they, as in the local Universities, will decide to increase next year’s intake as well?

College Day

After reading Jun Kit’s blog, I realised I was one of the few Arrowed from each class to go for college day last year! Witnessing the award presentation, hoping that there will be performances as it is College Day. Argh! But somehow, I think I said something like, “Next year this day, where will I be…”

I wanted to be back to collect award, but at that point of time, I didn’t think it was possible. I just looked at people with multiple awards with envy, especially those with 3As/4As and yet received regconition by their CCAs. Cause this would probably mean that they managed to balance their CCA as well as their studies. Even now, I still envy such people.

This visit to MJC should not be my last trip there, considering that I might still go back for Guitar Night 07, if there’s one. However, as I’ve said before, I didn’t think I would miss the school, at least not half as much as how I miss CCHS. When Denise mentioned about what is the one thing I missed most about MJC, it took me a long while to think through my answer. If you thought it was guitar, I’m sorry, I don’t miss it. Instead, I treasure it. I miss my first 3 months. Those genuine laughters. Even though we had cliques, we were close together. Interesting personalities kept the class spirit going strong. O4A102 (First 3 months) was probably the one aspect which I miss most from MJC.

Nevertheless, it felt good just to see the guitar people again. However, I must admit that I felt more distant away from them. To be frank to myself, I felt lost. I think I would have felt much better had I went for my Japanese class. That’s how I felt. I’m sorry, I know this shouldn’t be the feeling I should have, but it’s just happened this way. I can’t help it.

So I guess, it’s about time to move on, get out of my comfort zone and yup, maybe I will feel better.

Aftermath

Perhaps it’s all about perception. I suppose I shouldn’t compare CCHS with MJC. It’s 4 years against 2 years so I suppose it is not a fair gauge. I had enjoyed myself throughly in the first 3 months, as well as in the later stages of guitar. This experience really changed my perception of bonds, so much so that I felt teary whenever I listened to our SYF recordings. I left MJC with mixed feelings, had my share of fun laughter anger sadness. For that, I thank you, MJC.

A levels – A Wrong Path taken

-I’ve never known uncertainties. But now that I know it, I never want to know it again.-

It’s really nice knowing people around me getting straight A’s. Guitar Ensemble had quite a fair share of them. Chung Cheng-ians did themselves proud too, with more than a handful scoring more than 3 distinctions. Feel proud and happy for them.

From Guitar, Jun Yi, Yan Ting, David*, Cheryl, Elaine, Dody*, Ci Yuan, Siew Wei, Shu Yan…

From Chung Cheng, Jun Yi(again), Xin Yi, Wei Ding*, Yi Xiong, Qi Fan…

*-more than 3 distinctions

Felt good that Eugene managed 3 A’s too.

As for me, I only managed a C D D and a C6 for Gp. I can’t say I’m sad with the results because I have to say I’ve foreseen that coming. The above result is actually the best I’ve ever managed in the whole of my time in MJC. At the very least, I get a full cert to certify I finished my A levels.

They say it is the last result slip that counts. So if the next education is a good one, the A levels result doesn’t matter anymore. However, my next path is a blur now.

There is this sudden want to study during the journey home. I have no idea why. Like the studying passion have come up to me. I’m definitely not happy or proud of my result. However, I’m not ashamed with it as well. Afterall, this is my result.

-This is my results, there are many like this, but this is mine.
I am nothing without my results, my results are nothing without me-

I consider this a stain, a setback in my education road. I know that I’ve not done exceptionally well in my previous educations, but yet they are enough to bring me to the next level of study. And sadly, I noticed a trend.

Primary school

Science A*
Maths A
Chinese A
English A
Higher Chinese Merit

Secondary School
Chinese A1
E Maths A1
Chem B3
Physics B3
A maths B3
Elective Geog B3
English B4

A levels
Econs C
GP C6
Maths D
Geog D

I’ve concluded that I AM getting stupider by the years. Maybe it is the lao ren chi dai zhen.

I’ve forgotten about the feeling when I receive good grades. I used to cry when I receive bad results. I remembered during Pri 6, when I got 76 for maths, I cried on the whole bus journey. Perhaps now, I’m immuned to bad results that I don’t feel THAT sad anymore.

I’m now forced to consider alternatives in the case that NUS reject my application which is almost certain.

I have already said that the overseas route is not for me. I do not wish to endure the A levels again. I cannot take the stress and everything else related to the A levels. Not again. There’s poly, but that is 3 wasted years.

I’ve considered signing on last time. But now, as a PES C who could not enter SISPEC or OCS, signing on would kill my source of income immediately.

I quite certain I’m not able to work after my NS. I don’t know why, I just felt that way.

I’ve come to conclusion that SIM will probably be my best hope. However, the courses are strange to me and that it is much more expensive than NTU or NUS or them combined together, due to no subsidy.

Gary came up with NIE. But what can I teach? I have to say that secondary school will be my most likely option if I want to teach. But what subject could I teach? Secondary school teachers have to teach 2 subjects. That is a pain. Cause my C is in Econs. Secondary schools have yet to offer econs. I doubt my maths abilities and I also doubt my Geog abilities. Having taken only elective geog for O levels. Science is out of the question. Chinese? Ha-ha.

– 老师，这个字—么写？Then I say, 我也不知道。 so Pai Seh right? So yah, it’s kinda phrased out. And trust me, with C D D and Gp C6, which school will accept me?

Analysing my results, Maths – D. This is probably one of my best case scenario. I had expected an E, O or F for this subject.

Econs – C. At least the tuition paid it’s due. A C is rather acceptable.

Geog D. Fucked up. So much for all my hope resting on this particular subject that I’m counting on.

Gp – C6. Not unexpected. But I felt I did better.

Yup, this brings me back to where I’ve started. Should not have stayed on in Meridian. This is never the place for me. I don’t belong to the JC Life. But I hesitate to make my move and I end up paying the long overdued fine.

-If I could turn back time…
I probably will not abuse the power.-